Twenty Fourteen in a Nutshell

i guess it is time to stop and look back at all the highlights of twenty fourteen for me.

twenty fourteen start off in the simplest way possible. there wasn't anything special besides me being at camerons for the first time for company trip (oh i left that company already btw). did one of my proudest work for Kenny for Valentines this year too!

[Events] Twenty3 | Chapter One Launch

it's my second time walking the catwalk for Twenty3. previously i walked their bridesmaids collection during the KLPJ Wedding fair back in April but i was too busy i didn't blog about it. maybe i'll do a throwback later on k? heh~

[Beauty] Daily Make Up Routine

first impression is always important. you wouldn't want to wake up looking like a ghost to meet someone new or attend an interview underdressed and not looking your best would you?

#JxY_ | How It All Started

it takes two hearts to beat, two souls to go on a journey, two hands to cling on to each other, and two knots to tie each other. it took us to a whole new adventure.

Of Relationships and Mind Games

so i was watching this video by Jinnyboy earlier today. and here's my verdict on relationship and mind games.

it's a fact that these days, many of us tend to play mind games before getting into an official relationship. it all begins by adding each other on social media after meeting for the first time. perhaps not even meeting at all by using dating apps such as Tinder / Paktor and so on. u wait for a couple of days, mayb months before you approve their Facebook request or say your first "Hi". while the other person takes a couple of hours before replying u. and it goes on and on...

u don't reply a long sentence coz u think it may sound desperate. or you opt to wait for the other person to start the conversation.

for goodness sake, if you're already on social dating apps, are u even that shy or embarrassed in the first place to make the first move?

u probably might not get it that there are shy guys as well. girls, why can't u make the first move? no one is gonna call u a slut if u act first. there's no harm in dropping a hint in letting the other person know that u are interested. drop your first "Hi" to start the conversation, find mutual topics, send a random funny image, anything u can think of!

[TAKE A STEP] Hello Kitty Town JB

Had to be the specky girl coz my contact lens died from the rain during the marathon and I forgotten to bring extra disposable contact lens along for this trip. We left for Hello Kitty Town from Singapore after checking out from hotel and nommed at Puteri Harbour before we heading in to the "town".

Marathon | Hello Kitty Run Singapore 2014

sorry for the backlog post! i know i've not been updating frequently enough! please forgive me.

so anyway earlier last month i've headed down to singapore for Hello Kitty run. i'd say it was massive. there were thousands and thousands of us doing the run.

upon arrival, i got in touch with Jyuri first to get my race pack from her and then got myself changed for the run. guess there were just too many of us, it ended up being a standstill and walkaton instead. mehhhhh....

Omnoms | The Porki Society

*this post is non-halal. sorry if you are a malay reader. :)

personally, i've not tried Boat Noodles / Big Spoon or anything similar like that. i did drop by Boat Noodles once but the queue was so long i gave up.

of being judged.

waking up to a brand new day knowing that from the decision made and posting of my latest update yesterday would have upset and shocked many. i'm pretty sure that there are many that would have started judging me with their very colourful eyes. words like childish, selfish, bitchy, show off, disrespectful would come easily.

humans are naturally selfish. especially when it comes to emotional feeling. who would want to be hurt? who would want to experience heart pain? neither one of us want to. but there will be times when certain decisions have to be made. to stay put or to move on.

who would have guessed things like this would happen so easily. even i myself did not prepare myself for any of these.

at least im here to face and bear the consequences of my decision. rather than hiding in the dark.

for those who have known me and understood me would know that i am someone who have always been worried and upset whenever being judged. i could have managed the settings, and hid them away from some of you but i chose not to. so, it is quite a huge decision for me to do something like this and . but heck, this is part of life.

i guess people grow up and change. so did i.

there isn't need for explanation on the decisions that i've made, on whatever that had happened because no one else would know what exactly had happened and understand besides us. whatever had happened was a beautiful memory which i will always keep with me with no regrets.

for whoever that feels sick and disgusted looking at my photos or updates, feel free to remove me from your friend list if it makes u happy.

at the end of the day, i've chosen to go on this brand new adventure and there wont be any regrets.

so go ahead, judge me. i will take them in as a learning to strengthen myself even better.

Darts | MSDO Championship 2014

it was the event of the year that i've been anticipating and training hard for. this year, the number of players doubled up, which means even tougher fights for me and everyone else who played last year.

クリスマスの意味。The Meaning of Christmas.

it is the time that i've been waiting all year long

it is the season that i love most

it is the festive that i'd want to be with that special person

it doesn't really matter what we'll do

it doesn't really matter what gifts or if there will be any

what really matter is the time that i'm gonna spend with u

tis the season to be jolly and merry

the season of love for family

the season of love for the loved one

for christmas is the most meaningful day to me

it is the most beautiful celebration to me

and the most romantic of all for me

for if i've said i wanted to be with u on this day

u should know how much u mean to me

for if u've decided not to be with me on this day

i will understand that i may not mean anything to u

for all that i want for christmas

u will have to find out

for who i want to be with on christmas

for u should feel it within u

Wanderlust

a wandering wanderlust

with her mind wandering into space

a space of empty thoughts

probably there was too much on her mind

probably she wanted to take things off her mind

probably she didn't know what to do with her mind

let her wander

let her fall

for that she will find her ways

ways to stand up once again

for she is no one

for she wants to be no where

for she has lost her mind

far far away

on a wanderlust journey

let her be

俺はワンダラスート。
俺は誰？
俺は何をしたいですか？

Take A Step | On the land of Bangkok 1.0 Episode Five

We had to queue to have tea at Hello Kitty Cafe Bangkok. With two cray girls who loves Hello Kitty, the boys had to come along with no rants.

Take A Step | On the land of Bangkok 1.0 Episode Four

Woke up to day three and headed over to Siam area which we started off with lunch at Siam Paragon. lunch was at the food court of course. Since it would be pretty fast. We also did the stupid poses outside the food court acting all scared inside the shark mouth.

運命。Fate.

tomorrow never knows.

zutto. zutto.

never give up. on your dreams.

fate.

it is un-explainable.

it is indescribable.

fate.

it happens as when it happens.

it leaves as when it leaves.

sometimes it happens so fast.

so fast that you're unable to think before reacting.

sometimes it is not how long you've known each other.

because when it is the right time, u just have to hold on.

sometimes it is not how much time you've spent with each other.
because not everyone waits. not every fate waits.

the only explanation is...

when both held on to each other.

when both appreciates and treasure each other.

when they learn to accept and compromise with no force.

fate.

we cross paths on many occasions.

we brushed pass each other at many places.

yet. we did not meet.

it is fate that brings us together.

to have known each other.

may it be friendships.

may it be a new relationship.

may it be soul mates.

may it be an ending.

may it be enemies.

fate.

it takes us through many new challenges.

some may not pull through it.

others may end up with the ending they always dreamt.

fate.

always believe in it.

always have faith in it.

because if it's meant to be, it will be.

if it's not meant to be, it will never be even if by force.

fate.

appreciate it.

treasure it.

何ですか？What is?

愛。何ですか？

two souls walked as one. 

bracing on different challenges.

venturing on a journey that they own.

two souls loved as one.

accepting each other's flaws.

with no complaints, with no rage.

giving their all.

appreciating the times that they had.

sharing and loving.

protecting each other.

not letting go when one was falling.

zutto. believing in fate.

でも...

there were many mistakes made.

that were never fixed.

there were love given.

that were unappreciated.

they did not understand each other's needs and wants.

they expected return. they forgotten on giving and not just receiving.

they forgotten it was a two way communication.

there were barriers. huge barriers that could not be broken.

there were issues. big issues that were never resolved.

they were overlooked as small matters.

these two were unaware.

unaware that they have both took different paths.

paths that would have led them to a different ending.

to an unexpected ending.

最後...

it comes to a point where these two souls can no longer hold on together.

with all the mistakes made throughout their journey.

with all the hurt and pain. all the selfishness.

and they..

embark on a new journey. when one fate ends, another new journey begins.

always have faith in fate. because fate will bring u to a new adventure.

an adventure that you will look forward to experiencing.

this is the end of a journey of three years.

this is the end of it.

it has been some time.and not many have heard of it.

it took some time but

サヨナラの準備は、もうできていた。

i am ready.

those were beautiful memories.

memories that will be kept safe.

there will be questions.

there will be many WHYs?

どうして？

all that could be said is...

ごめん。

俺は上に移動。

ごめん。

俺は疲れた。

heads up. move on. step forward.

there is no point standing at the starting point.

stop dwelling in the past.

time will not turn back.

even if there are or will be regrets.

this is life. but remember. to always believe.

there will be someone out there. 

waiting for you.

ずっと。運命をしんじる！

いま。これから。永遠。

ずっと。

俺の愛は誰？

お前ですか？

TIME FLIES, HUMAN CHANGES

There are times in life when there's something u have to let go although u may not want to. There are times in life when u don't have a choice. There are times in life when u've got to smile and move forward. But the fact that this is life.

Perhaps there are many things in life that you're not willing to let go off. Perhaps you are stuck somewhere in between letting go and holding on. At this point of time, the best thing is to do a little something different from your daily routine. Instead of hot coffee, perhaps a cup of iced tea. Or you could embark on a brand new journey to somewhere new. You might just see things in a whole new different perspective.

Sometimes you have to walk away from what you want to find what you deserve. Sometimes you have to make that decision in life. Even if it is so harsh that you might end up regretting it some day. Even if you have to be the mean and hurtful person. But there are these times when you just have to be that person. Even if it takes to be judged.

There's one thing to always bare in mind, that no matter what you say or do, there will always be someone judging you. Because you can never please everyone in the world.

So stop trying so hard because you don't have to impress the whole world. You just have to be you to take what it takes and do what it makes for your own future. Yes, this may sound a little on the selfish side but basically this is human nature. We tend to be a little selfish especially when it comes to emotional feelings. We put ourselves before anyone else.

Don't let the words, actions and attitude of others affect ur emotion, smile and life. Because you live your life.

And as time goes by.... we travel a little further on a different journey.

We have different mind sets, We took different paths. Without realizing it. At the point of realization, it may be a little too late to turn back time. We've walked our journey differently. We've set our journey differently. Yet we did not realize we were doing it together. Yet there was a huge misunderstanding that it wasn't the way it was expected to turn out.

It is a risk. A risk so high it is worse than forex at any point of time. Yet all of us would take our chances.

Once taken, there will be one who might end up in pain....

The only constant in life is change. Human changes. Their way of living, mindset and feelings change. Some would remain as who they are but most change as they grow older. Some change for the better. Some for the worse. But remember not to change yourself for someone else. Change because you think it is for the best of you. And appreciate every person and moment before anything changes because this is part of life.

Enjoy life to the fullest, and make the best out of it! As so I've said it. :)

[EVENTS] Amplify with Guinness

woke up to a crazy packed schedule last saturday but hey i had lotsa fun! of course by starting off with lunch with my awesome girls.

Dream Trip to Macau

I've been to a couple of countries in Asia including Hong Kong which was 7 years ago but yet to have the chance to visit Macau! there are so many reasons for me to go which i am already saving for. and here are my top 3 reasons for dreaming a trip to Macau!

1. Historical Buildings & Guia Fortress

This is pretty cliche but when u visit a country, you'll definitely have to see the best of them! Having to see my besties and other friends selfie-ing with these beautiful architectures always turn me into an envious green monster. Plus Guia Fortress is located at the highest peak of the Guia Hill! simply gorgeous!

2. Darting with Macau Players

and as my readers know I love darts and there are so many awesome darters in Macau that I would like to personally meet and learn from them! I was supposed to go earlier this year for a tournament which I had to skip due to work reasons. :(

3. Jumping off Macau Tower

Look at that beautiful Macau Tower. It has always been on my bucket list that I've been longing to do! To jump off Macau Tower with that awesome scream while enjoying the awesome view from up above! and me being a scardey cat would really want to do it right NOW!

i guess i really am craving for that crazy adrenaline rush right now looking at these really awesome jump photos! and they say when you're craving for it, it is the best time to do it. else you'll be over with it and not able to do it ever again! :(

biggest bonus would definitely be all the awesome yummy good street food! om nom nom nomssssss!

and with these three reasons, I really do hope that  Macau Government Tourist Office (MGTO) and Nuffnang Malaysia would make this crazy dream come true for me!!! pretty please~~~~

Take A Step | On the land of Bangkok 1.0 Episode Three

Woke up to day two and the original plan was to head to the floating market but it was really far and no cab wanted to take us there on a fair fare so we decided to just stay in town and shop at Platinum instead.

Take A Step | On the land of Bangkok 1.0 Episode Two

After a quick shower and change, we head out for dins at Cabbages & Condom which was one of the popular spots in Bangkok. and of course you wouldn't be able to find something like this in KL. The thing I didn't like about taking the cab from the hotel was most cabbies would give u a flat rate instead of running on the meter but it would be so much cheaper if we got 1 with meter.

Darts | MSDO Championship 2014 Press Conference

so rad gave me a quite last minute notice on the press conference but i managed to make it to it. heh!~ thank god i was available on that day.

Take A Step | On the land of Bangkok 1.0 Episode One

This is the very first time I ever flew out of the country so early. Note to self. Never ever do that ever again! I had to leave for the airport at 3.00am to arrive at 3.45am because I was told that it took many people quite some time to search for their platforms in KLIA2 and that many have missed their flights. Bad tip indeed.

Number76 | Number76 Starhill Launch

my favourite hairstyle from my favourite saloon buzzed me the other day. i was pretty surprised as usually i'd be the one buzzing her. thanks amy for inviting me to the launch party.

[Cuppa] The Curious Goat

as promised here's my quick write up on The Curious Goat. sorry it has taken me soooooooo long as i've just returned to kl from my bangkok trip. yes! that means bangkok trip write ups coming up really soon. *well after 76 starhill launch*

Omnoms | John Ross Jr at The Curious Goat

finally had time to go through and edit all the needed pictures for this write up! yay! many thanks to Radius for introducing me for this nom-ing food review! 

[REVIEW] Maybelline Big Eye Mascara

ah yes before i begin, i must admit my negligence towards blogging for the past week. been going through lots of stuffs and i couldn't put myself together to crunch up anything good. well, finally everything is all good and i'm ready to write again!

Another Year Older Episode Nine

my sisters love celebrated my birthday last as we had to adjust to each other's horribly busy schedule. which we had dinner at Palsaik Korean BBQ Restaurant at Solaris.

Another Year Older Episode Eight + Manoah Blogger Appreciation Night

Episode Eight is all about my my dart teammates. there are 5 of us who are august babies hence the big celebration at Trinity on Merdeka eve.

Another Year Older Episode Seven

last weekend, the other bestie which i've known for twelve years dated me out for my birthday lunch.

Another Year Older Episode Six

and then on Thursday Yukiko darling swing by my office to have lunch with me before she flew off.

Another Year Older Episode Four

this surprise was the most unexpected as it was the last class for japanese beginner two and i think the only time i mentioned about my birthday was during earlier classes when we were learning about dates and birthdays. lol.

Another Year Episode Three

episode three was another surprise coz i asked my Pek Chek Kaki out for dins way before hand but they ended up inviting a couple more of really important people to me to attend, plus decorated the place and surprised me.

Nail Experience with Number76

so now not only i go to 76style Bangsar 2 to do my hair, i head over to 76style Mont Kiara for my nail pampering sessions too! yay!

Another Year Older Episode Two

the next day, we girls had planned a high tea session and pretended to be "tai tais". it was more of a get together catch up tea session but it ended up as a sweet surprised from the girls.

Another Year Older Episode One

it has come to the time when my birthday arrives and i have to admit in being another year older. hopefully wiser as well. yet again i'm blessed to live another year with awesome people around me.

Take A Step | Ipoh Mali 1.0 Episode Four

On the last day we headed to Thean Chun Restaurant at Ipoh Old Town.

work. deadlines.

the fact that i've actually drafted my Ipoh Mali Final Episode blogpost and it's left in the draft for a few days coz i've been to held up at work. by the time i got home i was to exhausted to upload the images and publish them. so please hang on for a day or two more. it will be coming.

Take A Step | Ipoh Mali 1.0 Episode Three

Dinner wasn't exactly in Ipoh. We headed to Tualang which was an hour drive from Ipoh.

Take A Step | Ipoh Mali 1.0 Episode Two

The very next morning i woke up to even more food hunting.

Take A Step | Ipoh Mali 1.0 Episode One

Just got back from ipoh yesterday evening from my two days two nights food trip. Ate so much this trip that I was mumbling "there goes my diet, there goes my diet, there goest my diet..."

of taiwanese literature night and new hair

this weekend was slightly different. instead of just dota and darts, i joined my friends to attend a taiwanese literature night by popular book fest at kl convention centre.

You & Co. | Of Birthdays and Decorations

there's been a lack of update on my wedding & events side of what i've been up to lately. for the past few months, we've a couple of birthdays set up. quick simple ones because they were all planned at the very last minute but we're glad it all turned out perfectly fine.